sometimes it’s easier to say you don’t care, than to explain all the reasons why you do. sometimes it’s easier to just say “nothing.” than to list all the things that are wrong. sometimes it’s less of a pain to keep to yourself, so the people that care don’t see you break down. sometimes, it’s just better to hold it in, than to let it out only for it to take control of you.
I’ve fallen into “slacker mode”. I can blame me, but I’m not going to. okay, fine. i’m doing more than i can handle. i just can’t seem to stop anything though, it’s becoming overwhelming.
lately things have been a mixture of perfect and terrible. i’m just not sure how i should feel but i’m definitely choosing to focus on the good.
Everyone I used to be close with, it’s not the same anymore. The people I used to talk to on a daily basis, are just like all my other friends, people I talk to every now and then. I don’t like thinking about it, but it’s true. All the people I once was close with, we’ve all kind of just went different ways. We’re still friends and everything, but I miss talking and hanging out with someone on a daily basis.
i wish i could just click the fast forward button to see how i’m going to end up 10 years from now, then rewind it back to now. so i could see if i’m heading down the right path or if i should turn back now before it’s too late. that every single obstacle i have to go through will all be worth it in the end. i just wish i knew so i could live in the moment rather than stressing too much about the future 24/7. but i guess that’s what makes life so interesting. the uncertainty of it all.
but never forget the lessons they taught you. stop expecting those that walked out on you to walk back in. if they wanted to be a part of your life, they never would have left in the first place. one day, they’re going to realize how much of a mistake they made so let them miss you. if you end up missing the past too much, you forget to appreciate those that have been there with you since the beginning.
if i had any idea on how to make this i would be this for halloween.
No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don’t want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”
— Steve Jobs (via catherinepounces)
i actually love having blunt friends. i mean, not brutally honest but that honest where you can ask for an opinion and they’d straight up tell you the truth. it might hurt sometimes, but at least you won’t go the whole day having them lie to your face and shove up suger-coated words in your mind. i respect honest people.